Day 30 of the 30 day challenge

A picture of someone you miss,
My other special little girl angelica. I miss her sooooo much, i used to be a big part of her life, but she has moved away with her mum now and I dont see that much of her, but i keep in touch with her mum and keep an eye on her, hoping to see her at half term. She was only a baby when I first met her and she is now almost 9, I cant believe what a beautiful young lady she is growing to be.

Day 29 of the 30 day challenge

A picture your afraid of,
My grandparents, are THE most important people to me, they are the head of our family and have been more parents to me (given my actual parents werent much good at it) i have lived with them most of my life. They have been my constant rock & guidance throughout my life. Not all my childhood memories are perfect, but thankfully the ones with my grandparents are and they often outweigh the other ones. Im afraid of failing them, I always ask myself in situations what would they think of it. I hated telling them i had seperated from my husband, i felt i had failed them then, but i hadnt, i dread telling them lots of things and i dont know why, becasue I will never be a failure in their eyes. I am afraid of them not being here anymore and cherish every minute I have with them now.

Day 28 of the 30 day challenge

A picture of you and a family member:
My princess ella bella, is exactly that my little princess, i love her more than words can say, she is for sure a blessing from above. Having had two boys and knowing i wouldnt have any more children, i was desperate for a little girl of my own. My sister finally gave me one, its even better that i can hand her back, she has her own pink princess palace at my house, she is the most spoilt little girl in the world, whatever she wants she gets it, thats what aunties are for, I spend loads of time with her and she is always sleeping over. I cant wait to watch her grow and have lots more fun times, she is a mini me already a proper little diva. But she is sooooooo gorgeous you can forgive her anything.

Day 27 of the 30 day challenge

A picture of something that means a lot to you.
I wish i had a picture of all of my friends, but i dont, I never take my friendships for granted and can, like most people count my best friends on one hand, those friends mean the most to me, i love them all every day. I know how lucky I am to have them, I have tested that friendship over recent weeks with my on/off relationship with boo, the ones that mean the most have been the ones on the phone/or just a quick text checking Im still alive and ok, I already knew who my great friends were and love them for just being them and for loving me so much.
Fraser, Nicola, Sammy & Jonny deserve a special mention... I love you all so much.

Day 26 of the 30 Day Challenge

A picture of your favourite day...
As strange as this may sound, my wedding day was/is one of my favourite days. I got married at Gretna Green with 20 of my closest friends and family, the wedding itself was perfect (shame about the husband) I have very special memories of that day for lots of reasons, it was also the last day i spent with my mum, she was taken ill and sadly passed away the next day. At least i could share my big day with her.