A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
This one is easy.. my boo
I have finally met my Mr right... it has been a long long time coming. Despite being a serial dater and dated hundreds of men, i have actually only had a "relationship" with 5 men since i was 16. I am actually quite fussy in the men department, despite some of my friends thinking that i fall in love too easily, i actually don't at all. I can get carried away with the moment on occasions, but i do know the difference between it being a lustful moment and meeting someone for keeps. One of the 5 (Richard) was a married man, so Im not even sure i should be counting him, despite leaving his wife and living with me for a short while, it didn't work out and i could cringe now, that i let him treat me like he did. I thought he was the absolute love of my life, he didnt just break my heart he shattered it into thousand of pieces and i didnt think it would ever go back together again.
The last relationship I had (Scott) ended in 2007, we were due to get married that December (not many people know that as my sister was due to have her first baby 2 days before we were getting married) so kept it a bit hush. he lived a 7 hour drive away and it was tough doing the Friday night dash in rush hour every weekend and dragging the boys along for the ride, but we talked often about him moving in with me and getting a new job, i always held back somehow and suggested if he did that he ought to live on his own first, trying to do things slowly and sensibly, but that's not me, if i really know its right i just go for it all guns blazing so i guess i knew this wasn't right really, i wanted it to be , but something was making me hold back from committing to him properly. He absolutely worshiped me, treated me like an absolute princess , which i just wasn't used to and didnt know how to appreciate it or handle it. I was so used to being the one doing the looking after, that i just pushed him away in the end. It could have been the right man , but it was the wrong time for me, i just wasnt ready for the huge commitment with him, so soon after my previous heartbreak and i needed to work on dealing with my emotions from that relationship first before committing to a new one.
Which is what i have done, i have dug deep and learnt a lot about myself in the process.
I learnt to love and respect myself over the last couple of years and making some positive changes , like de cluttering the negative people in my life , moving home, changing the way i live my life, taking away stress etc, has all made me a much happier individual. I was absolutely prepared to be on my own for a long time and was happy with that decision, i have my boys and my friends that more than occupy my time.
That has all changed now, i have met my boo. after fighting him off and telling him i wasn't interested either, he kept persisting and im so glad he did. I knew the minute i met him that he was for keeps. Every day i love him more and more.
Being so independent and used to my own company i never thought i would want to live with anyone again or could live with anyone again with all their annoying bad habits, sharing the remote, not being able to slob around in my PJ's all weekend, i certainly didnt want anyone calling me all day & all night.... BUT I DO NOW
boo came to stay over & he hasnt gone home yet, I love making him a nice dinner for when he comes home, i make him a little lunch to take to work, we speak the minute he goes out of the door and spend as much time as we can calling each other and texting in between, i absolutely cant get enough of him and him me, we both feel exactly the same at the same time, which hasnt happened for me since i was married 14 years ago.
He has absolutely made a huge impact on my life recently !!
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